March One.3/1/2020 March 1st. Just another day in 365. This one holds some significance for my family, though. 731 days ago, (thanks, Leap day), the man who brought me into this world, left it. March 1, 2018, was the day that my dad, Dan (Danny, to many), died. Was I sad? A bit. But mostly just nostalgic. Everyone grieves in their own way. For me, the months leading up to this date were worse. November and December (my daughter’s birthday, Thanksgiving, and Christmas) were much more difficult for me. This day, however, was different. I woke up knowing THE date. I also knew my kids knew THE DATE. My two daughters were whisked away by my sister and her husband for a pancake breakfast, while my son and I opted to sleepily stay at home. After some coffee infusion, and a chat with a dear friend (who cheered my dad’s memory) I absent-mindedly decided to make chili. My dad liked my chili. Then I texted my brother. And then my sis. And all of a sudden-spur-of-the moment - we were all gathering at my house with chili and cheers in memory of dad. That was okay. That was a good thing. Sometimes, the best things aren’t planned. They aren’t thought about and mulled over-- and thought about again, over and over. Sometimes, the best things in life, Just. Happen. They just happen. I missed my dad and remembered my dad today. I know all my brothers and sisters did. Especially my mom. And My kids. They loved and missed their papa. He was the new guy. A guy I learned to know and love in a whole new way. Because the papa they knew, wasn’t the dad I knew. At all. But they were both great guys. Great Men. I don’t know why I write about these moments sometimes. They are jibberish at moments. A lot of jibber-jabber -- as one of my best friends once said. But still. I write them. And maybe they resonate with some. Thank you for reading. And for connecting with me. Be good people. Be kind. One day, a loved one will pass. And you will have a 2-year-later moment. And I hope in that moment, you feel that they are THERE. Would they be happy with where and how you are? Would they be happy with you doing….saying..." they were" or "would be happy if..." They ARE happy and smiled with you. Cheers, Dad. Love you.
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Ang
3/1/2020 10:10:22 pm
Big hugs to you today. So glad you got to spend some time with family to reminisce. Thanks for sharing your day with us.
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Rose Kachnowski
3/2/2020 10:24:26 am
Nicely said Julie. You expressed what we all felt yesterday. So glad we had that "spur of the moment" time. Love Mom
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